Ira wrote..

Copied from one of my best friend’s, Ira’s, blog.

She wrote :

The Existent of The Non-existent

“We do something to earn something..and yet we might cherish the result of the effort, but some simply take it for granted…Usually something that we earn with hard work will last longer than something that’s being given to us for free….coz we appreciate and respect the hard work that we put into it…

We work to get what we want or what we need..but how long should we stick to the things we’ve earned? some people stick to what they earned for too long and in very excessive way..sometimes they don’t realize that they don’t posses what they have…

“You don’t know what u got till it’s gone” is probably the most common paradox …Something yet to exist more  in ur life when it’s already gone..Like u finally realize how much u love ur country when u’re away….or like how much the memory  people  sticks in ur mind after u lost them…the thing u lose tend to be the thing that consumes much of ur mind and energy…silly?weird? yeah it’s true…

Yeah we should not waste too much of our time to things that are no longer exist. We cannot erase the past, but we shouldn’t let it haunt us. There are no mistakes…there are only lessons to learn…yet..it only intensified the paradox…the existence of the non-existent..learn from things that had passed…”

When I read it, it got me deep. Her above writing has more or less the words in my head that i cannot describe into post.

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My heart is beating. My heart is beating. Please come back.

whisperdesire : Akhiri Cerita dengan Pesan, diantara Halu dan Titik Terang Dalam Sendiri.

Considering the title and the object of this post, i should be writing in indonesian. I’ve forced myself to, but i cannot give the right expression. So, sorry…

A few days ago I mentioned about whisperdesire‘s splitting and that they left three live-recorded new singles to be downloaded on their mySpace page as farewells. Those songs are the only three songs in my playlist from the minute i finished my downloading, and nothing else. The recording was nowhere near perfect, any critic would make a feast out of it. All three songs are climaxing slowly, plus their first halfs of 2 out of the whole 3 songs are not very easy to enjoy, despite the technical difficulties. At first i even thought freddy’s voice was as near as horrible though the instruments behind it are quite excellent, but once i hit the rest half i know instantly why i love them and why their splitting has making me mourning for three days now.

“Halu” has a very hollow start, it’s deep and lazy and has this haunting feeling. it really feels like a farewell song, i didnt even bother to listen to the lyric. Then the second half moves in and it is a whisperdesire’s. I can imagine myself, solo-dancing in an-almost-dark space with my both eyes shut and hands open in the air, just dancing in nothingness, loosing myself into thin air. If it is a real goodbye, i’m having it with my lips smiling in the melody.

I remember seeing the band performed “Pesan” in two of their gigs which i attended earlier this year, and i remember it to be a good song. So i’m relieved that it also comes as one of the downloading material. The recording has a minor disturbing feed back, but i decided that i can live with it when Freddy’s high-pitched falsetto enters. Maybe there’ll be a line for those who will curse him for bringing a possible-damage-cause voice to their ears, but i’m not on that line. Since i am a ms. brightside lately, the out-of-tune voice is not what i hear. I hear angelic. An epic from its first key. This one deserves a slow dancing on the rooftop.

“Titik Terang Dalam Sendiri” is a mediocre. I’ve seen them performing it before also, but the song doesn’t stay in me as “Pesan” does. Still, it is a constant jingle thru my days now.

I first listened to whisperdesire in August of last year and i love it in an instance. I had a copy of their EP, Cerah Berawan and I love every single song in it, all 4 of them. My fave is “Kita Akan Bertemu Disana”. It gives you optimism, a good closing for their every gig.

Conclusion. Will not be able to repeat the glory of seeing them performing live on stage is regretfull. But they’ve done it enough. A very good kind of ‘enough’. It is one of a proud-full split.

If you have enough curiosity, go listen and download the said farewell singles on : www.myspace.com/whisperdesire

My Bitter Sweet Bundle Of Misery.

I had a terrible weekend. It was all started with a disaster last Friday, when I found my work -say, “the 80″ since I had it finished at its 80% when I last saw its existence- was vanished. Completely without trace to God-knows which heaven or hell. Stupid stupid computer and its stupid stupid viruses. And an even more stupid stupid me. Off course I lost any mood that was left in me the instant I realized that I had to redo it from scratch. So instead of redoing “the 80″ I was wandering around, bugging everyone that I can bug. But I managed to live until the end of the day.

On Saturday,it was hell. A friend kinda stood me up, but luckily I have a better friend to cure the day. After one lousy movie, probably the lousiest I’ve ever watched, I then arrived to the point where I ignored all of the non beneficial situation I had. I slept like a baby that night. And btw, the movie was titled Bangkok Dangerous, it has Nicolas Cage and some Thai actors with Thai sets and all, and it was a horrible piece. To be noted, I wouldn’t have watched it in a million years if I was in any position to give any objection, but not on this Saturday.

Today, Sunday, a relaxing one. Just me, the tv, and the dvd, and the Gilmore Girls. I’m not a fan, but so far I managed to get myself to the fourth season. I was quite entertained, actually. Until another update strikes. whisperdesire, one of my fave local scenes, officially announced that they split. Actually I’ve heard the rumors months ago, but didn’t found any confirmation, so for me it stayed as just rumor until i went to their mySpace page earlier today and found a blog entry announcing the split. Well, at least they left some farewell live recordings of their new songs to be downloaded on the page.

Then I talked to one of my best friends who is thousands of miles away, thanks to this modern life that is not at all rubbish. But after a roller coaster connection, the call had to be discontinued due to the unstable wireless connection of the other end. This modern life, is indeed, rubbish.

Hell. I don’t know how to end a pointless writing. I’ll just stop typing. Now.

I Got Lucky.

I got lucky.

It was one of those boring days, too much to do too little willingness to actually ‘do’ any ‘do’. Hah. So then I escaped to my bed, put on my earplugs which conductor the music to my ears, but then again I was still boring. And so I was scrolling and randomly picked any song and hit the play button.

I got lucky.

I heard some applauses, some clapping hands, some whistlings, then a familiar tune continued by familiar voice and words. Oh, it’s just Oasis, live with their “Dont Look Back In Anger”. But no. It was not a ‘just’. I was kinda altered when it reached chorus and right at that second i had my first smile of the day. Instead of being delivered by one of the brothers, the whole lines was sang by the entire stadium! Well, I dont know if it was a stadium performance since it was only an audio recording, but it sure did sound like one. A magical one. So I got chills. And decided to dedicate the rest of the day listening to them. But nothing was like the first hearing. Love it love it love it.

“So, I Start A Revolution From My Bed”

Wonder what it must feels like, having the greatest band in your youthful life to act exactly in front of your bare eyes. Chills and chills and chills. Hah. Dodo would say that it’s ‘ecstacy’-esque. Well I was just listening to the recording and I had some, too. Next wonder will be, what it must feels like having thousands of people take over your song’s chorus and shouted it in its melodies right in front of you. Another ‘ecstacy’, I guess. Wonder what Dodo’s actual responds to these wonders would be, but since I exchanged only a few lines in these past couple of days that are not enough to be considered a conversation, these wonders will not have any good anticipating discussion any time soon.

Still, I got lucky.

The rest of that day, a definitely amusing day.

Fave tracks (at this moment) :

1. Don’t look back in anger
2. The shock of the lightning
3. Live forever
4. Champagne Supernova
5. Digsy’s dinner
6. Stand by me
7. The masterplan
8. Don’t go away